Catching Up in March :)
Hey all! I guess I have been away from blogging for quite some time. Lol. Was busy with chores as I had to complete my assignments, prepare for my final exam and continue my daily routine as a working young woman. Good news is, I managed to complete my two assignments out of three. I feel quite relieved as I believe I will complete my assignments earlier and submit them. And yeay ! I can start focusing on my final exam. After a stress free week, I do not want to blog about my studies or job again. Now, I would like to share something personal about me, my feelings and how people treat my feelings.
I have always been a nice person since I was a young kid. Growing up in a middle-classed family, my mother never failed to teach all me the good values in life. I grew up as a person who forgives and forget no matter how badly someone hurt me. When I was a kid, this was not a problem. But, as I grew up older, I noticed that some people tend to take advantage on my soft nature. I do not raise my voice, I do not scold anyone even if my anger is at it's peak. I am a person who always tries to understand a person as I believe that you would not know how someone feels unless you are in their shoes. I never knew that being a nice person will give people space to bully you mentally and emotionally.
I used to have many friends. When I say many, there were a huge load of friends. Wherever I go, I had friends. I loved each and everyone of them dearly despite of their differences. And, I am person who tells thing directly. I don't believe in gossiping behind your back or acting nice to you and mumble behind. No. If I feel that you are doing something which is not right and your actions are making me unhappy, I will voice it out directly on your face. I know at times truth hurts but to me acting nice and being fake are even more shittier. Unfortunately, the more honest you are, the more friends you will lose. People nowadays love to be with fake people rather than friends who want to be honest with them. So, this was basically how I lose friends. They failed to accept the truth I tried to explained to them.
Not to be proud of myself, but in school, college and now my office, I am one of the most dedicated person in the organization. I don't reach late to work or classes unless I got stuck with some real unavoidable issues. I always adhere to the rules and regulations. Most importantly, when I do something I do it with full commitment. Therefore, most people like me. Having the bosses and executives to like me, I have haters among my team members itself. They hate me for the compliments I often receive and the hard work I portray. I am generally a person who loves everyone around me even if they hate me. Whenever I find my colleagues not doing well in job, out of a good will, I'd advise them and share with them on how important a job is and why we should secure it. But when I do that. I get labelled as a bossy person who thinks herself as very perfect. And what next, I lost friends. Lol..
I used to worry a lot for things like this. I often think that I'm a bad person who do not how to treat others around me. But then I realized that the problem is not with me but from the people around. I do attract people as well, but definitely the wrong ones. I show love, care and concern on people who do not even deserve it at all from me. I may be harsh in words. But,the love and care I share are genuine. Sadly, people often misuse the care I have on them. At the end of the day, I get treated like shit. I used to cry at night alone thinking nobody loves me or tries to be real with me. I always feel that I give all the love I have to others but people do not share even a bit of love with me. I blamed myself for being who am I. I thought that I should now show love to people as they don't deserve it.
The truth is, this who I am. The one is full with love and willing to give an ample amount of love to people who needs it. The way people treat me reflects who they are. And the love and care I show reflects who am I from the within. So, I decided to keep showing love. To accept it or not, it definitely depends on the individual. What I am trying to say is, never lose who you are and what you are because of the people around you. You are unique in your own way. You are only responsible of what you are showing and not what people understand. That's all for now :) Happy March everyone :D
I have always been a nice person since I was a young kid. Growing up in a middle-classed family, my mother never failed to teach all me the good values in life. I grew up as a person who forgives and forget no matter how badly someone hurt me. When I was a kid, this was not a problem. But, as I grew up older, I noticed that some people tend to take advantage on my soft nature. I do not raise my voice, I do not scold anyone even if my anger is at it's peak. I am a person who always tries to understand a person as I believe that you would not know how someone feels unless you are in their shoes. I never knew that being a nice person will give people space to bully you mentally and emotionally.
I used to have many friends. When I say many, there were a huge load of friends. Wherever I go, I had friends. I loved each and everyone of them dearly despite of their differences. And, I am person who tells thing directly. I don't believe in gossiping behind your back or acting nice to you and mumble behind. No. If I feel that you are doing something which is not right and your actions are making me unhappy, I will voice it out directly on your face. I know at times truth hurts but to me acting nice and being fake are even more shittier. Unfortunately, the more honest you are, the more friends you will lose. People nowadays love to be with fake people rather than friends who want to be honest with them. So, this was basically how I lose friends. They failed to accept the truth I tried to explained to them.
Not to be proud of myself, but in school, college and now my office, I am one of the most dedicated person in the organization. I don't reach late to work or classes unless I got stuck with some real unavoidable issues. I always adhere to the rules and regulations. Most importantly, when I do something I do it with full commitment. Therefore, most people like me. Having the bosses and executives to like me, I have haters among my team members itself. They hate me for the compliments I often receive and the hard work I portray. I am generally a person who loves everyone around me even if they hate me. Whenever I find my colleagues not doing well in job, out of a good will, I'd advise them and share with them on how important a job is and why we should secure it. But when I do that. I get labelled as a bossy person who thinks herself as very perfect. And what next, I lost friends. Lol..
I used to worry a lot for things like this. I often think that I'm a bad person who do not how to treat others around me. But then I realized that the problem is not with me but from the people around. I do attract people as well, but definitely the wrong ones. I show love, care and concern on people who do not even deserve it at all from me. I may be harsh in words. But,the love and care I share are genuine. Sadly, people often misuse the care I have on them. At the end of the day, I get treated like shit. I used to cry at night alone thinking nobody loves me or tries to be real with me. I always feel that I give all the love I have to others but people do not share even a bit of love with me. I blamed myself for being who am I. I thought that I should now show love to people as they don't deserve it.
The truth is, this who I am. The one is full with love and willing to give an ample amount of love to people who needs it. The way people treat me reflects who they are. And the love and care I show reflects who am I from the within. So, I decided to keep showing love. To accept it or not, it definitely depends on the individual. What I am trying to say is, never lose who you are and what you are because of the people around you. You are unique in your own way. You are only responsible of what you are showing and not what people understand. That's all for now :) Happy March everyone :D
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